Monday, November 4, 2013

Past and Present

Today is a day of memories.  It is the 2 year anniversary of the passing of my daughter's best friend, and I am grieving his loss as well.  It doesn't seem as though he's been gone this long, and then other days, it feels like forever.  It is so difficult to watch my daughter grieve as well.  She's having a rough day, that started last night, and has been spending the day with me. I think about wanting to take the pain away from  her, but then I think that she can't grown and learn unless she goes through the pain.

Also, October 31 marked the 1 year anniversary of my divorce.  What a difference a year makes.  WOW, is about all I can say.  This time last year, I was feeling really sad and was still depressed.  Now, I'm in such a better place.  I've grown a lot in the past year.  I've discovered that I am happy with myself, with who I am, who I struggled to become, and where I am going in my life.

I find that once I got myself together, other areas of my life started to come together as well.  I'm now in a healthy relationship, with a man who loves me, and wants to build a life with me.  We live in a nice house, in a nice neighborhood, where I feel safe.  There have been some struggles, and we will have struggles, but we haven't turned on each other, or away from each other.  We know that there will always be people who don't agree or appreciate where we are, but then again, there are those who love and support us too.  So, life is good.

Even in the memories, I am content, and isn't that what we all want?

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