Looking Back and Looking Forward

For the past couple of days, I have been a bit introspective.  I've been running down memory lane a bit, but not the good memories.  I decided to go back and read my blog from the beginning.  I'm quite startled by reading it, as I guess I didn't realize that I was really that broken.

You see, I chose to start this blog when I was separating from my ex-husband, and I used it to tune into myself, to look at where I was making mistakes.  I wanted to make myself a better me.  I think that I've accomplished that, being better, although there is always room to improve.  I still use my blog to look inward, to see where I am, and to figure out where I want to go.  Moving forward seems to be the catch phrase these days.  Even if those moving steps are baby steps, at least it's forward momentum.  

I'm also thankful to those of you who have come on this journey with me, the journey to find who I was, who I wanted to be, and why I was the way that I was.  For those of you who were there in the day-to-day, I cannot even begin to express how much your support and love have meant to me.  For those of you who read my blog, and silently applaud my successes, sigh at my failures, I thank you too, for being there, for allowing me to explore those deep and dark thoughts in my brain without being judgmental.  It's been through your support that I've been able to move forward.  I know this, and I hope that you do too.

Looking forward is a good thing.  I'm looking forward to what life will bring me next.  I am going to embrace it all, and take it as it comes without being so "hyped up" about it.  It's been good for me to take the high road, even though at times, it's felt stifling...it was still the best thing to do.

I love that GB stands behind me, and encourages me to do the right thing, to be who I am supposed to be, and loves me through all of this.  Thank you, especially to him, for loving me, in the way that he loves me.